#time to take this to therapy 👍🏼

[mainfaggot]

I've been up since 7 i want to sleep forever and ever and ever

[unganseylike]

my anxiety has been ridiculous the last two days for a stupid reason, and i just rewatched the trolley problem episode of the good place and why do its vibes feel just like my anxiety. u are put into incredibly stressful situation. some people are moderately bothered by this, but no where as much as you. someone is telling you its just a simulation, so why are you so upset? you have blood all over your face. also, someone adds, its just a simulation, but the pain is real to give it stakes, btw. you already knew there were stakes. you are a fundamentally bad person.

[sitp-recs]

If you are talking about the post about "my ships giving me mental illness", I have seen several fandom people whose fannish obsession was fuelled by untreated mental illness :D But obsessions are quite normal in general, you just have to control them somewhat. I have family with hypomanic and manic episodes and have sometimes wondered if my excitement is something similar. Have to avoid certain topics in polite company to not start foaming at the mouth and walking in circles, even though I'm not autistic or anything... And the part about going to sleep too late, yep... But I try to be an adult and decide that I do need sleep and take care of boring stuff too :D

I’m happy you found a way to manage and live with it, finding balance is everything! I agree 100% that untreated mental illness can have a big impact on fannish obsession, and even one single traumatic experience irl could send you spiralling. A couple years ago I went through a very painful friendship breakup that left me completely alone and out of sorts for a while. I grasped onto fandom with everything I had bc it was some sort of therapy during covid but eventually life got back to normal and I realized that this lifestyle was preventing me from going out there and opening up to new friendships. I had to leave Discord because my fomo anxiety was still hitting strong and it was hard to control the urge to read everything everywhere all at once - I wanted to post new recs every other day and would feel “unproductive” if I didn’t. I struggled with that for a while up until my body said ooookay time for a burnout 🤡👍🏼

[1111jenx]

random astro placements &

their culture 🎠🤍🎠

(part 3)

you guys clearly enjoyed being roasted a lil too much so i'm bringing this series back for ya;) enjoy beautiful<3

astro culture//part 1 — part 2 — part 4

🎠cancer rising culture is having major god complex AND savior complex but its so subtle no one but your closest friend know. like yes daddy tell me more about your struggles and addictive patterns you only confide in me right?🥰

🎠mars in 4H culture is a life long burden of trauma so you hoe around as a coping mechanism like flirting with your therapist like "what mommy issue? you do be looking kinda fine today mamas"💀💀

🎠virgo mars culture is being slapped during sex bro. i said what i sad.

🎠gemini rising culture is having your friends telling one another to "tread lightly" and to not make any overbearing jokes that can trip you out because you're waiting for a new prescription for your anxiety meds.

🎠mercury in 5H culture is joking about someone's sex life in public when you're 5 shots in and your bestfriend just look at you like😀can you not😀

🎠sagittarius placements culture is enjoying sarcastic people a lil too much. y'all literally love it when the most skeptical, the most stubborn and sarcastic person can take the heat and drag you to hell and back with their words is that a kink or something why are you guys enjoying this😋

🎠pluto-midheaven culture is dressing like a retired witch whenever you're in your element.

🎠sagittarius placements culture is also having a soft spot for people who act tough on the outside but you know it's just a front and now they got your attention so you gotta stick around and figure them out *sigh in private browser*

🎠uranus 8H culture is lowkey getting turned on when people give you the cold shoulder. on and off attention?constant mind games caused by possibly years of therapy? yes please bring it mmhm😈

🎠scorpio moon/venus/mars culture is pushing people away before you get attached like oh is it already 1AM? aight wake up tinder fling y'all gots to go.

🎠saturn in 7H culture being active on tinder 24/7 and your side hoe list is way too long but then deactivating it during exam szn because you have "priorities"

🎠saturn in 7H culture is actually still hooked on that one person that you were barely physical with but you "felt something was there" and can't stop thinking about them after multiple flings wishing that you could have done things differently.

🎠uranus in 4H culture is moving around all the time when you're younger and your family dynamic changes constantly so you in turns do not get attach whatsoever or you don't even bother to get to know people too early on anymore.

🎠aquarius mars culture is secretly enjoying it when you meet an astrology fanatic like "oh you can tell me more about myself? i mean i know myself pretty well but yeah keep talking"

🎠moon in 12H culture is having everyone ranting to you about their emotions so randomly like you'd just be ordering an ubereats order and your friend would turn around and tell you shits like "bro i think i might need to go to see someone i've been seeing things when i sleep..." so you just kinda go "uh okay what do you want😀bbq sauce or sweet and sour sauce?"

🎠mercury in 4H culture is seeing books and more books everywhere in your childhood home. you probably grew up reading the atlas for fun💀

🎠chart ruler in 11H culture is getting into arguments with your boo because they think you'd choose your friends over them😀

🎠chiron in 7H culture is telling people you're not that picky tbh but you know deep down your standards is higher than than mount everest.

🎠virgo+aquarius energy in a chart culture is telling people "i cOuLd nEvEr stay with someone who cheated on me" but lowkey though, as long as its physical not emotional😀👍🏼

🎠aquarius rising culture is constantly justifying your partner's wrongdoings because you love them and they have a special place in your heart and you know you don't just let anyone in🥲 borderline delusional but you do you gurl

🎠lilith in 7H culture is asking yourself why am i like this what is wrong with me because you get turned on by toxicass ride-or-die mentality like Harley Quinn and Joker energy or Bonnie and Clyde pls get help when you can xoxo

🎠pisces moon culture is taking a step back and going the other way when you heard a girl crying at a party because "good vibes only" and you're too drunk to handle one more person's burden today🤡

🎠leo rising culture is staring at your s/o for an hour and smile & look pretty as you ask them if they notice anything new about you but after another hour of profusely sweating and overanalyzing they gave up and you got mad because you spent banks on the new trim for your hair ends💀

🎠pisces rising culture is blushing when you think about your s/o like ya my boo do be cute but silly😌 and ya my boo simps for me and me only😌

🎠capricorn mars culture is waking up one morning realizing how you forgot about your loved ones for a sec and was stressing about work waaaay too much so you start buying them gifts and food without saying anything as a way to tell em you appreciate them.

🎠capricorn sun culture is falling for that one baddie who looks so put together but aren't that put together when they're with you🥳

🎠capricorn venus culture is getting weirdly horny when the usual quiet and relaxed person goes on a sudden power trip like 🤠thats kinda unexpected but i'm not mad you can proceed🤠

🎠taurus moon culture is looking at someones dead in the eyes and tell em you wish you cared enough lmfao "i'm chillin" but one shot of tequila in and you're oversharing all of your struggles

🎠virgo rising culture is refusing to leave the house looking crusty like oh you saw them looking unprepared? they prolly like you more than you know;)

🎠leo placements culture is seeing your exes/past hookups on the streets when you look kinda musty so you start running the other way😄 no body no murder dear🥰

🎠libra rising culture is fixing your posture&standing up straight as you use your fingers to brush you hair faster than someone can spell Bartholomew when you see the one girl you know was tryna get with your boo in the distance

🎠gemini venus culture is spacing out during an conversation and then make up for it by saying "okay i hear you though" or "i know what you mean" like do you really jessica? do you?

🎠jupiter 1H culture is using humour as a coping mechanism like bahahaha ya he cheated on me its okay tho i cheated on him too ahahahahahahahha🤣🤣💀

🎠leo moon culture is secretly loving it when others follow you like yeah i'm that b who started the trend i invented you b*tches👍🏼

🎠leo moon culture is telling your friend its cute that their boyfriend ordered food for them when they're sick and then posting on your story something along the line of "does anyone want to ubereats food for me teehee "

🎠cancer placements culture is knowing yours strength is either ribs or tits. either you're showing off that gorgeous stomach or those enormous tits no in between.

🎠chart ruler in 10H culture is screaming at your noisy ass friends to keep it down because you gotta submit this essay at 12 and once you submitted it suddenly you're funnelling in the middle of a party <3

🎠moon in 1H MEN culture is having the lady killer smile. so emotionally smart they make you feel cared for too sksksksk

🎠chart ruler in 2H culture is having hella✨anger issue✨ for 10 minutes and throw a tantrum before cooling down instantly and start asking your friends if they wanna grab frozen yogurt with you like nothing happened

🎠mars dominant culture is your friends having to physically stop you from beating up their s/o when you found out they cheated.

🎠venus dominant culture is knowing you're the shit and telling a guys with a straight face something like "if i'm your girlfriend/boyfriend you're welcome" like💀

🎠libra mars culture is removing yourself from the room when someone starts crying because "i can't do this today gf xoxo its been fun tho sending your good vibes!"

🎠aries rising culture is making sure there are going to be hoes at your party so your ex can see how "happy" and "content" you are💀💀💀

🎠cancer moon culture is being everyones favourite therapist. like you would just be existing and people would start telling your stories about their childhood trauma.

🎠cancer rising culture is being the favourite child. prove me wrong.

🎠cancer rising culture is also being the child that your entire family depend on emotionally like wtf why me🥰

🎠sagittarius rising culture is reading up astro blogs telling you you're a horse girl and you're just like 😐at least i'm a hot one bro😐

🎠saturn - IC harsh aspects culture is asking yourself damn i really lived my life and i turned out to be pretty decent aahahahaahahha no but seriously, are u guys okay loves?😀

🎠moon-IC culture is having a parental figure thats highkey obsessed with you and your life like they'd get hurt if you forget to tell them you bought a new diffuser💀

🎠capricorn moon culture is making a sarcastic comment and immediately overthink like fuck was that too harsh can they take it will they think i'm being serious or nah🥲

🎠aries sun culture is yelling at your subject of interest that you don't give a damn about them and they can go f themselves for all you care but cooling down 2 hours later and messaging them wyd wanna come over🤡🤡🤡

🎠taurus mars culture is being a closet freak like they're such cuddly people in secret. look like i fuck with you or you fw me🤬💥but is actually come and cuddle energy🥺👉🏼👈🏼

🎠scorpio mars culture is getting chills and a slight heartache when someone holds your hand like "i mean i don't usually do this but this is kinda nice i guess🙄"

🎠capricorn venus culture is doing the nasty on a pile of green dollar bills. change my mind.

🎠pisces mercury culture is people underestimating you and think you're a lil softie but wait til you go all psycho on them and bring them down with your words only, the power you hold ma'am i-

🎠gemini mercury culture is telling your friends "nah dawg i'll take care of it ion need to study to get good grades" and you actually don't😐

🎠libra mercury culture is dirty talking in a submissive way like wow you're so good at what you're doing omg i love it when you do that yes you're the best and the most amazing d ever😄

🎠aquarius moon culture is being hella possesive but no ones know you are except for your loved ones so you're just chillin for now

🎠virgo placements culture is the inability to say no to people you love like why are you guys so self-sacrificial stop it

🎠mercury in 8H culture is laugh out loud when you get a dirty text or a sexy photo and you get a lil too excited and ignored the fact that you're at a family dinner sir

🎠8H venus culture is pinching yourself to force a smile when your s/o tells you they wanna have a girls night/boys night like 😄sure😄ofcourse😄lets😄spend😄some😄time😄apart😄

🎠moon in 6H culture is forcing yourself to cry because everyone starts crying so you just go uh i guess i'll be sad now uh💀

🎠10H saturn culture is telling your friends "no promise but i'll do my best crying is not my specialty dawg"

🎠capricorn mercury culture is running around the afterparty to make sure everyone is still alive. watch you knock on the washroom door a lil too hard to check that theres no junkie friends of yours OD-ing in there 💀

🎠taurus placements culture is having chaotic firey friends like the superiority you feel being the sane one among these clowns🥰

🎠pisces/aquarius placements culture is chanting spells out loud and spray holy water around your house

🎠cancer placements culture is showing up to your friends house with a bag full of supplies and say something like ok i'm here bitch lets start crying i made food sit down lets talk about your issues wtf happened.

🎠leo placements culture is falling in love with either venusians energy or plutonic energy. strictly one or another.

I can not believe how many ideas I have for these culture post y'all. they just keep coming. I'll do one more proper observation post soon cuz ik i've been slacking✨ haha if you guys make it here gimme a OWA OWA like last time and if you're still reading y'all better lemme know what you think about this and how it applies to you🤡

ily guysssss,

love,

saint jenx🪐

[sie-rui]

Imagine mikey with the reader as his mother-figure that he hasn’t seen in a while and one day he sees them again and Mikey would probabaly have tears in his eyes or smt 🤤👍🏼

❀ DARK CREVICES | TOKYO REVENGERS 🤍 sano manjiro 💿 female reader, second pov (you/your), family, platonic relationship, angst, hurt no comfort, au - canon divergence, timeline: bonten, aged up character (19), imagine 📅 july 01, 2021 🔗 masterlist

sano manjiro never had a mother. he had you. had. it's been years since you left that he's starting to forget.

The last Manjiro had heard of you was that you got a job in a different country, one that you were chasing for a long time now. It was the last time he saw you as well, waving goodbye as you put your bags in the cab, embracing him and Emma one last time with a teary smile. They lost contact of you but Mikey always knew that you were fine, somewhere out there.

Mikey didn’t dare to ask you to stay. He didn’t have the right to. You were Shinichiro’s underclassman back in the days and you often came around to share some information and stories with Shinichiro, often getting dragged into the Sano family’s shenanigans and hangouts with former Black Dragon members.

When Shinichiro died, you became distant. You still smiled, still hangout with them and played with them, but it was different. It was as if you were purposely avoiding them, Mikey understood because he knew that he and Emma only reminded you of Shinichiro—someone you deeply treasured.

Your smile was empty, eyes even emptier. And Mikey realizes with great fear, as he looks at the mirror, he looks exactly the same.

You lingered around, jokes still as good and stories still as entertaining, but just like Mikey, there was that darkness gripping on your legs, trying to drag you down. Only, you were better in drowning it out, in hiding it, so as to focus on the kids, to take care of them like how Shinichiro once did. Perhaps even more.

You cooked for them, especially on their birthdays. You helped clean at the dojo, greeting the solemn older Sano with cheer, the same Sano who mulled around, thinking of his oldest grandson that passed. You walked Emma to school whenever you could and you attended any special events they have, be it festivals or graduations. Hell you even attended the parents-teachers meeting for them.

You were there, deeply integrated in their life, deeper than when Shinichiro was around. They leaned on you but you didn’t dare to lean on them, not wanting to put such pressure on kids. Kids that should get therapy but refused to, refused to tell you and anyone else what was wrong.

When you said goodbye, Mikey couldn’t ask you to stay even when Emma was on her knees, crying and begging you to. You were Shinichiro’s friend, it was just by complete chance that you became somewhat of a mother figure to them as well.

They weren't your responsibility. And Sano Manjiro could never ask you to say, could never ask you to trap yourself in this place when he knew that all you wanted was to get away from it.

He only looked at you one last time and that was it. He didn’t hold it against you, if anything, he was happy that you were picking your life back up after helping them so much. Now, it was up to him to keep himself and Emma afloat now.

That was it.

But now Sano Manjirou is nineteen, floating around with blank eyes and a heart that continued to beat even if there was no reason to. He’s alone, too alone, too lonely. There’s no Baji, no you, no Toman to lean back to, no Emma. Emma.

Only the Kantou Manji Gang. Kantou that was created only for destroying, not for building. And what Mikey desperately needed was to feel full again, to feel alright, to feel steady.

It’s been six years.

It’s been years but he could recognize that face anywhere.

Standing there, right in front of Mikey’s favorite taiyaki stall in the middle of Shibuya, was you. You hadn’t grown a single inch, your fashion hadn’t changed either, and there was still that faint trace of innocence and younger years in your face despite you way past your teenager years already. Nothing changed, nothing at all.

It was as if Mikey was thirteen again, waving you goodbye as you flash them a teary smile, pressing quick reassuring kisses on their foreheads one last time. Emma was right beside him, Baji wasn’t that far, having bid his goodbye earlier in the day already. Manjiro’s hands were clean then, of dirt and of blood, and everything wasn’t this bad.

He blinked and he was nineteen again, Kantou President, soon to be Bonten’s. With blood on his hands, scarred and calloused, as no one stood beside him, only below him.

Nothing changed, except for one thing.

And that was that you were lighter. Your eyes were brighter, shoulders squared and weightless, smile true. There was no darkness looming above you, no hand grasping onto your feet ready to pull you down when you let your guard down. There was none of that. Only the rainbow after the rain that Mikey hadn’t seen in a long time. You healed.

Mikey feels the tears build in his eyes but he blinks and forces them to be gone. He turns around, keeping his head low and taking fast steps. He was too deep in now. He couldn’t drag you back down in these dark crevices when you finally got yourself out after clawing your way up. Manjiro couldn’t do that to you.

He’ll remain in the dark, no chance of coming back up. And the least he could do is make sure that you don’t fall in this hole that he now resides in.

(You look behind you, wondering if you were imagining things, only to see nothing. No trace of the person that you thought was there. Shrugging, you turn back to the taiyaki handed to you. Mikey preferred dorayaki but you remembered that Emma always had a love for taiyaki. You smile, wondering how they were doing now.)

[gucciboner]

hope it's okay I'm asking, but what kind of therapy do you go to, and is it helping? I hope it is, because you deserve the best ❤️❤️

awh 😩<33333

im in ed recovery / day therapy its not really doing a lot yet but that's ok cuz its my 3th week and it takes time 😌👍🏼

[stephaniamorris-blog]

October Awareness Month. To every strong amazing woman out there who has suffered or who is on this current journey. You truly are hero's 💗(My story) I want to share this because I don't think everyone understands how much your world gets thrown upside down. (And believe me, it does). I was told about my Mum's Cancer a few days before Christmas Day. The worst Christmas we had as a family as we were left in such an unknown territory about how far Cancer had spread or what grade it was and you do start to think, will this be our last Christmas with our mum? In January 2017 Mum was diagnosed with stage 3 breast cancer.                         Mum went and had surgery and under went further treatment, she had chemotherapy and radiotherapy over a period of 1 1/2 years. Trying to live a 'Normal Life' (whatever that is).After being told and mum starting treatment we went about the norm family everyday life. I was going to work coming home looking after mum (after shift work) repeating the same thing over again a few days later. (Sleeping became overwhelming to say the least, I was running on coffee). We would take turns on taking mum to hospital appointments and staying with her, you don't seem to mentally prepare yourself for 8 hours + watching the person you love grow tired and exhausted. Then there were times we did laugh out loud, I think to keep sane you have to laugh through some difficult situations. The hair loss massively impacted my mum, she never coped with loosing her hair. Her hair was one of her main features to her and her body image. Mum did get a few different wigs but she never accepted wearing them so she stuck to hats or a wig with a hat for going out, but would always say how warm and horrible it felt on her head.                                                                                                                                          Mum taste buds changed drastically and each day was a challenge to make sure she was eating or drinking something to keep her body fulled but this was a hard task! Being involved socially with my friends took a great impact, I am quite a social person, wanting to be out with them, but catching up would be the quickest catch up ever. (My friends are truly amazing and supportive) However, I would be mentally and physically exhausted so I'd be in bed for 7 pm!! (Bonus it was a dream😍). Work-life became a Work-life, which by this I mean not really enjoyable. I was always exhausted or worried and it created new emotions which lead to me being very anxious with anxiety attacks. No one prepares you for the experience and changes in your life, how could they? there is advice and support but it's kind of left to how you to how you deal with these new changes. I di have feelings of guilty some day's, but that's only because my mum wasn't my mum and it was hard work. She was no longer this crazy outrageous woman I looked up to, she had lost all her confidence and it was an extremely tough situation. I was sat down a few months later by my mum and her sister and was told that my favourite person in the world (Nana T) had also been diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. (It was a kick in the throat) at this point, I felt so numb that I did have to come out of work for my own mental health. (And this is ok to do Health comes first!) (Getting to terms with a new chapter of my life) I had to learn how I could become indestructible and always put on a happy face. I did on the end have to accept that it wasn't weak to accept help in the end, after all I am human. (So now for the positives 👍🏼) Counselling helped me a lot!! (I finally went) the fact people were listening to me and gave me a shoulder to cry on was truly amazing. (A swearing colouring book was the best thing I purchased to help with emotions and therapy). Even though I felt guilty it was me crying about it, it was about time I accepted the word Cancer and what it did do to my family. We look at our elders as indestructible , but they are not and sadly my Nana did lose her battle to cancer. My story is one of the millions and I could go on and on with my experiences. And I hope one thing from anyone who reads even if you are young/old/daughter/mother/son/father/friend/family, to anyone who has someone in their life going through the same kind of thing, make sure you also SPEAK out and accept the help there is. My amazing mother is in remission now she is 2 years cancer-free. Mum went in and she kicked its arse!! And she is still fighting to be the person she was but even better! (She is a reborn survivor) She speaks to women every day who have been through or are just being diagnosed and she shares her story. Mum was blessed by women who shared their story it massively helped and supporter her. So time to get into trouble but here it is, I am sharing these pictures. This is strong, beauty, power this is beating CANCER. #togetherwecanmakeadifference 💗#cancerrightnow